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A Whisper from my soul
All things that humans do are all charged to their faults. God made our mind to control anything and made our heart to balance everything. But what really lies from that existence depends on one's self. What you do in your life depends on your strength and courage. One beginning, different plot, one end; that's the real story of life.

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Musing: Another Rant!
Friday, June 29, 2007 7:40:00 AM
Life can be incredibly unfair at times.

Every time na nakikita ko sila, nagi-guilty ako. Feeling ko ang laki-laki ng kasalanan ko sa kanila. Every time nakikita ko sila, naaalala ko lahat.

Siguro akala nila, ok na ako. Na naka move on na ako. Pero hindi nila alam 'yong feeling na.. mahirap ipaliwanag. It's as if I carry a heavy burden every time they look at me.

I can't explain why I can easily solve other people's problems but struggle with my own.

I can't put into words the emotions that surge within me when I see them when they look at me. All I know is that it hurts.

Kung kayang ko lang ibalik 'yong nakaraan gagawin ko bumalik lang sa dati ang lahat.
"Nobody said it was easy,
It’s such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard,
Take me back to the start."
- The Scientist by Coldplay

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Musing: Am I the Problem?
Wednesday, June 27, 2007 8:57:00 PM
These past few days, may mga bagay na gumugulo sa akin. Sabi nila, "NAGBAGO" na - a lot. Hindi na daw ako 'yong dati. Napansin ko rin. MALAKI NA NGA ANG NAGBAGO SA AKIN. Kahit anong pilit kong gawin para kalimutan ang nakaraan hindi ko magawa. Feeling ko, lahat ng taong involve sa nakaraan ko nasasaktan ko. Hindi ko na nga sila kayang kausapin na nakatingin sa mga mata nila.

Feeling ko kasalanan ko lahat kung bakit nangyayari ito.

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Repost: A Prayer
Saturday, June 16, 2007 6:29:00 PM
I was reading Paulo Coelho's Like the Flowing River when a certain story caught my attention: Alone in the Road. There's a prayer in the story that I'd like to share:


O God, when I listen to the voices of the animals, to the sound of the trees, the murmur of the water, the singing of the birds, to the rushing of the wind or the rumble of thunder, I see in them evidence of Your unity; I feel that You are supreme power, supreme knowledge, supreme wisdom, supreme justice.

O God, I also recognize you in the difficulties I am experiencing now. God, let Your satisfaction be my satisfaction, and let me be Your joy, the joy that a Father takes in his child. And let me remember You with calmness and determination, even when it is hard for me to say: I love you...


It was taken from Dhu 'I-Nun (d. ad 861), an Egyptian Sufi master.

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