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A Whisper from my soul
All things that humans do are all charged to their faults. God made our mind to control anything and made our heart to balance everything. But what really lies from that existence depends on one's self. What you do in your life depends on your strength and courage. One beginning, different plot, one end; that's the real story of life.

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Journal: Forever Ends Tonight
Sunday, November 23, 2008 8:01:00 PM


The best part of falling in love is when you already knew from the start that if won't work but still you went for it. And now you're completely happy in pain.

I never imagined that we would go this far. That one whole year is just one hell of a ride. Everything is so perfect.


We are on the best part of our dream together. But I guess all dreams must end. And it all ends tonight…

I can’t help but cry each time I think that we should part ways. It is like losing my soul. You became everything to me – my soul, my life, and my heart. I know its cliché-sh but that’s the truth. Over the past weeks, I never had the chance to say thank you. All I can think was the heartaches, pain, and sorrow. But if it wasn’t because of you, I will not exist. This kind of me will not exist.

Alam mo ba na ikaw lang nakapag paiyak sa kin ng ganito? You always ask me, why do I cry this much, not only this time when we need to leave each other but even before, I cry this much. The only reason I can think of is that because I love you… Sabi ko nga di ba, if crying is the only way to make you stay then I shall cry until my last tear drop fall.

Until now, what happened to us doesn’t sink into my mind. Siguro kasi nasa denial stage pa rin hanggang ngayon. Pero don’t worry, everything will be alright from now on. Ayaw ko rin kasi na nakikita kang nahihirapan dahil sa nangyayari. So I guess tama na rin siguro ‘tong naging decision mo. And I’m letting you go na…

Siguro nagtataka ka kung para saan ngayon ‘to, just like what I’ve said, parang ito na ‘yong way ko to say thank you. Salamat sa lahat. Sa isang taon na ‘yon, sobrang daming happy memories ko sa ‘yo. If ever na meron mang hindi maganda, hindi ko maalala. Wala akong maisip.

Ma-mi-miss ko si *xo (kisses) at si crunch. All those memories with xo will always be in my heart and I will truly treasure it. H’wag mo kalimutan si **xo (hugs) at muffin ha. If you need me, I’m just one text away from you. Lagi lang ako nandito.

This time, I will say sorry na. Alam natin na maraming hindi magandang nangyari this past few weeks lalo na sa’yo. Sorry sa mga ginawa ko.

I love you so much xo. I love you more than anyone else in the world. I love you more than you can imagine.

“Do you still want to share your lifetime with me?”

Yes, I do. Until now, naghihintay ako ng miracle na sana maayos lahat. I want to be part of your lifetime. I want to be the one standing next to you whenever you have problems. I want to be the one who wipes the tears on your eyes each time you cry. I want to be the one you argue with. I want to be the one who holds your hands whenever you’re afraid. I want to be the one who hugs who whenever you feel cold. I want to be the one who shares you my sweater. I want to be the one you share with your “Paj Grill, Pao Tsin, or spare-ribs” during lunch breaks. I want to be the one who buy you snacks during your long hours of studying. I want to be the one who fetch and ride with you home. I want to be the one…

Don’t cry. I will always be here. Remember my promise? Kahit na ano pang mangyari, di kita iiwan. Mawala man ako, physically lang, pero nandyan lang ako parati. I wish you happiness.

And sa mga taong nakakakilala sa min, KAHIT KAILAN, HINDI PO NAGING KAMI. Dahil hindi namin kalian ng kahit na anong title para ma-prove na mahal naming isa’t isa. Basta we know we love each other. Naramadaman ko ‘yon.

So I guess, this should be us from now on. Bye xo. This is the hardest goodbye…

Sabi nga ni Gavin Rossdale sa song nya, “Everything will change but LOVE REMAINS THE SAME…”

I LOVE YOU MUCH XO!

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Repost: Pag-Ibig Ayon Kay Bob Ong
Saturday, November 22, 2008 4:27:00 AM
Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.

Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon.Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo.

Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.

Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.

Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.

Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.

Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo. Dapat lumandi ka din.
Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.

Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.
Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang.

Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? Alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?

Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban para makasama ka.

Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!

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